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Thread: Do You Have Insecurities? (Self loathing thread)

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    I'm with S.D., but I've made most manageable. I stay away from triggers for my own good- if I did some cognitive therapy I supposedly wouldn't have to, but that's just another way of coping- I think it's just too late for all that.

    I do much better with mirrors.

    I'm just trying to be the best me- I take care of myself nutritionally, physically, and mentally (which means staying away from the stressors when possible)^
    I'm still awkward at socializing outside my work (around my daughter's peers' parents)- this is a struggle of mine. & I hope it doesn't affect her future friendships... if she goes to school- I'm increasingly uncomfortable about teens in highschool. Just the other day a kid brought a gun to school here and shot himself during a scheduled fire drill. Yesterday, a school was on lockdown because of a threat. same things a couple days ago. shooting shooting shooting shooting all because of insecurities and social media- is private school any safer? homeschool. Can I afford it, the time? Will I be able to afford it? Will her generation rise above and leave behind the stigma of social media? )

    I smile more, smiles are returned.

    Don't stress about what can't be changed, change what can, and don't over-indulge. Unless it is hugs.
    & at the end of the day I'm teaching my daughter how to live happily & healthy- for now. Hopefully these roots are strong and stabilizing for the brunt of her teenage years.
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    Don't tell me what to do.

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    Yes i do, but i don't let that insecurity ruin my life

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    Quote Originally Posted by hugeur View Post
    Yes i do, but i don't let that insecurity ruin my life
    Drugs.

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    I wish I could feel more, be more, see more. Know more and feel confident that my reality is good.

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    @Golden Eel, are you actually Lester Burnham?

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    My level of tolerance, restraint and commitment to living at least another 20 years or so. Not that I want to destroy everything, everyone or off myself. But ffs I don't want to even begin to question how I've managed to cope with some of the worst types of pain, levels of hell on earth and how much longer I'm going to have to. So, I guess the insecurities below the surface of the ones mentioned are my constant feelings of uncertainty, becoming more and more impatient and my coping mechanisms dwindling more and more each day.
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    fuckwhatyoulove Nemoris Inferioris's Avatar
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    Quote Originally Posted by Shangri-LIE View Post
    My level of tolerance, restraint and commitment to living at least another 20 years or so. Not that I want to destroy everything, everyone or off myself. But ffs I don't want to even begin to question how I've managed to cope with some of the worst types of pain, levels of hell on earth and how much longer I'm going to have to. So, I guess the insecurities below the surface of the ones mentioned are my constant feelings of uncertainty, becoming more and more impatient and my coping mechanisms dwindling more and more each day.
    Hey look a new post! Anyway, i feel very similar to what you said. At some point life just becomes too much to handle. I don't think our brains were designed to handle these amounts of stress and anxiety on a daily basis. Our society have molded itself into something incredibly shallow and even hollow; we are constantly flooded with self doubt and negative thoughts to the point where we can't even live normal lives because we get so crippled with these insecurities. What i have noticed is all or most of these issues we deal with mentally are all self-conceived, and we subconsciously beat ourselves down to the point where we believe in those self-conceived insecurities. I can try to self-diagnosis and find an excuse or scapegoat and put a name to what's wrong, but it doesn't help. I'm not sure if it's a chemical/ hormonal imbalance, or a psychological disorder, or a poor diet, or not enough exercise, or the way we were raised; but it's definitely out of our control most of the time. Today, for an example, i felt mostly in a good mood, then throughout the day i felt a sense of negativity hover over me like a rain cloud. I then felt like my thoughts just spiraled down a black hole. At that point, i get annoyed by minor things, and use them as an excuse to feel angry or the way i feel. I'm fairly young, yet a lot of the time i feel like i can't go on much longer like this. Passing by days and cycles of depression, anxiety, low self-esteem, no confidence, no desires, no happiness, etc etc. As far as coping mechanisms, eventually you do run dry of what keeps you going, and things get bad from there on. I have noticed i am at a battle with myself. One part of me wants to hug the world and spread love, joy, and peace to every human being because we are all the same, yet so different. The world we live in is beyond amazing. It's a work of art. How far we have come as a species is amazing and impressive. The fact that we are all just a cluster of nerves and cells linked within cells within cells to create what we recognize as consciousness is just astounding to me. YET, the other part of me has a significant disdain for the human species. I want every person, including myself, to be wiped from existence because of what we have done and what we continue to do to each other as a species. My hatred will a lot of the time outweigh my love for everything, and it's exhausting to try and balance it everyday. Emotionally and Physically. Overall, life is difficult because we (as a society) have invented ways to make humans displeased with life. We all spend our money on things that make us "happy", and usually it's things that help us escape reality. Why are humans obsessed with trying to escape reality? Because reality sucks. And it only sucks because it's how we have designed it to be. Kids don't enjoy learning because school makes learning uninteresting. Our goals in life, by the standards of success determined by society, is to go to school, go to college, get a job, work, procreate, die. That's all to life? I disagree. So it's no surprise everyone is unhappy, or displeased with their life. Raised to be stupid, taught to be nothing at all. It's tragic, and we are so far gone by now, nothing could change. We would die out as a species before we learn to live in harmony. I 100% agree with Golden Eel, happiness is an illusion. A number you can not count to. Something to strive for, yet only recognize it as dopamine rushes. Buy shit, feel good. It's all we can do. I say, we are all doomed. Damned to live forever an unhappy life. But... so what? Embrace it. Go full nihilist. Nihilism is the only true happiness. Nihilism Is Modern Idealism. I'd rather not give a shit about anything than to pretend to be happy and give a shit about meaningless things in life.

    Anyway, just wanted to say i feel the same way you do (although i hate when people say they know how i feel, when they don't). I hope you and i and everyone else in this thread/ world to find internal/eternal peace someday. Cheers.
    Last edited by Nemoris Inferioris; 07-07-2020 at 01:05 PM.

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    My wish came true. But thanks for nothing. LOL.

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