ENTRIES 150 - 155

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From t-t-t-t on 02/22/03:

Have you watched Hegwig and an Angry Inch?

Answered by MM on 02/22/03:

6 inches forward and 5 inches back?

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From dandydagga on 02/22/03:

MEGALOMANIA - LANGUOR - VOT(ARIES) The past few days have been rough for me, so in a way I'm seeking some type of encouragement (or discouragement). My questions are in regard to your fans. You see, I have been a loyal fan for 9 years now. You've been a distant friend who has seen me through many events in my life. I discovered your music at a time when I began questioning the orthodox nature of my home and school, so logically you had a great impression on me. I was never the type of fan who sought a copy of every cd/mag/shirt/etc with the MM moniker on it nor the type to attempt seeing you over 18 times in concert, but more of the type to delve dangerously deep into your message/meaning. (I also refer to you for great recommendations in film, literature, music, etc. La Fee is tasty, though my choice is Mari Mayans.) To a degree I used you to define who I was, and at other times believed that you somehow had a piece of my mind. I had blinders on for a long time, unable to interact with people unless they were fans as well. The recent talk of children and insanity has stirred up old emotions in me. From '96-'99 I believed that I might perhaps be a missing gear (sigil?) in the machine that was Marilyn Manson. The basis of my belief stemmed from the Tetragrammaton, numerology and synchronicity which climaxed when I was 18 years old ('99). When you said that you felt as if half of your life was being spent in déjà vu, I empathized with you. I could list numerous personal accounts of mindblowing "coincidences" but for the sake of brevity I will spare you. In the end, I pushed it all away, concluding that I was going mad or suffering from delusions of grandeur. Although loyal in conversation and in heart, I had absolutely nothing to do with Marilyn Manson anymore soon after. I skipped college and ventured into the music industry, with mild success, but I soon became jaded by the mathematics of music, and I lost touch with my passion for listening to other's music. It was an honest attempt to stand on my own two feet, but in the end I much more preferred being a fan. Since my departure, the intense interest in Marilyn Manson has been rekindled (thanks to the golden age), and I have adopted a new reckless Peter Pan attitude. How irresponsible of me. Yet, my fellow fans have given me lots to think about over the past few days. One day I'm accused of not "having a life of my own" and the next I misread the significance of Mickey Mouse ears and I'm somehow not a worthy fan. At times I feel like I'm not going far enough, other times I feel like I'm taking it way too far. I'm quite capable of forming opinions of my own, but at a point of vulnerability the actions of fellow fans have only perpetuated my confusion. We all have our own definitions of madness. I'd like to know what yours are. How far is too far? Does there come a point in the idolization where you feel as if your toes have been stepped on? Can you respect a fan who assimilates your personae? (Or to an extreme, believes there is a cosmic force linking you together?) Does it annoy you that in the past I may save sought refuge in you, or that now I may be seeking approval? I may submit this more than once. Please don't interpret my persistence as insistence. In a crowd of thousands, I'm simply trying to better my chances. Love, Charlie.

Answered by MM on 02/22/03:

First of all, I have the beautiful bottled Mari Mayans--it looked like my name from afar. However, I spilled some on the counter and it ate away the paint! I guess that means it's good. Or bad. You almost sound like a ghost of my MPD meddling with my brain to make sure I am on track. Well, I am. We are holding hands, even though my mine are fists. I appreciate your candor.

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From Catheryna on 02/22/03:

I would like to know the story behind *hands of glory* what was your imagination as you created this picture? If this question was answerd befor so Im sorry.... cath

Answered by MM on 02/22/03:

Innocence lost. Look up the meaning of the title---this was also a character from a story I wrote once.

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From tolly on 02/22/03:

GRAMMY AWARDS? would you be going to those with Dita Marilyn? I think it would be great for you to go, just to show the other shit "groups" who's boss! :) oh and for promotion of the new album, hehe

Answered by MM on 02/22/03:

NO.

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From melissadye on 02/22/03:

i swear to god you have control of my mind and heart lolol..... what are you doing to me... =) if you need anything you tell me, i'll do it - well almost anything.. but anythign within reason and i will listen... when i thought i was talking to you in your chat once and i asked you if you ever used the name brianwrnr0 and you said no - was that a lie like i thought... and next, when someone told me the acc was to a robert in chicago is that true and are you someone i know from my past ... i'm serious, please quit messing with me, you ahve to tell me so i can see the things i dont see - i have to know them. there are so many people i forgot and lost and want to know about :)

Answered by MM on 02/22/03:

I never use any such forms of communication.

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From kacklerspackler on 02/22/03:

ABOUT XBAND: I was looking in some newsgroups and I saw ZIMM ZUMM has a new band and that he is trying to say he invented everything you come up with. I personally like JOHN5 and hope Skold is great too. But what do you think about these ex-members (NOT TWIGGY) like ZIMM ZUMM who haven't made any cd's but try to ride your coatttails? I saw your press release about "Degenerate Art" that was also on Helnwien.com. Then I saw that Zimm Zumm (dumb name, sorry Marilyn) was trying to say he said it first or some nonsense. But doesn't it come from Berlin? You had a painting of a similar name, No?

Answered by MARILYN MANSON on 02/22/03:

I have made a great effort to move forward and I do not dwell on my past in a negative way. I do not know about your comment's validity, but most of my influences have been shared with my fans from the beginning of this album. I have no comment on any ex-members. I will share my opinions on their music when they get around to making it. I have better things to do, though, than to "find help" from anyone who is helpless. Aside from the others--I am truly happy for Twiggy, though. Art is not ours, and we are privileged to be allowed to create it for others. I will be called "degenerate," but I will not allow my art to be labeled as such! My painting, is called "The Death of Art." It is the only architechtural piece I've done. It was from about a year and a half ago---in some ways a part of the creative process for the new album. Anyone interested in "degenerate" art should pick through Helnwein.com. He is a true inspiration.